Again David is passive, he lets Josh do what he does, lets him get angry. lets him lash out. Lets him be furious and bitter.
He waits for the finally words before he sighs and answers. There had been so much hate in Josh since his return. So much anger he never got to voice. Maybe this helped. He doesn't know. It wasn't deliberate of course. It just... was. It just was.
"Firstly, you could have run away. Maybe you should have. That's something we will never know. But it was your obsession with trying to redeem Kavinsky, to get him to love you and come away with you that led you back to him time and time again and got you kidnapped. And tortured. It wasn't just the kids, Josh. You played with his toy. Stark doesn't share."
David was still pretty certain that played a role in what happened as well, but he'll never know, now will he.
They never worked, he's starting to realized. David kept letting himself get caught up in the intoxication that was Josh Foley, and it hadn't worked. Because at the end of the day he was still David Alleyne and that was a truth he could never escape from. Josh lived life. David... organized it. And thought, and prepared, and in the process, failed.
"You're right. In the end, though, you're absolutely right. I fucked up. I fucked up with Krakoa. I fucked up with you. I fucked up with Stark. And I hate myself. And that's why I have to stay here. Because here keeps me away from doing something supremely stupid because I feel I fucking owe us all that."
He'd offered Josh a way to deal with Stark when they'd gotten Josh back. David's head on a platter. A culprit. Someone giving orders who could be dealt with. Frankly, he doesn't trust himself not to do the same thing again.
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He waits for the finally words before he sighs and answers. There had been so much hate in Josh since his return. So much anger he never got to voice. Maybe this helped. He doesn't know. It wasn't deliberate of course. It just... was. It just was.
"Firstly, you could have run away. Maybe you should have. That's something we will never know. But it was your obsession with trying to redeem Kavinsky, to get him to love you and come away with you that led you back to him time and time again and got you kidnapped. And tortured. It wasn't just the kids, Josh. You played with his toy. Stark doesn't share."
David was still pretty certain that played a role in what happened as well, but he'll never know, now will he.
They never worked, he's starting to realized. David kept letting himself get caught up in the intoxication that was Josh Foley, and it hadn't worked. Because at the end of the day he was still David Alleyne and that was a truth he could never escape from. Josh lived life. David... organized it. And thought, and prepared, and in the process, failed.
"You're right. In the end, though, you're absolutely right. I fucked up. I fucked up with Krakoa. I fucked up with you. I fucked up with Stark. And I hate myself. And that's why I have to stay here. Because here keeps me away from doing something supremely stupid because I feel I fucking owe us all that."
He'd offered Josh a way to deal with Stark when they'd gotten Josh back. David's head on a platter. A culprit. Someone giving orders who could be dealt with. Frankly, he doesn't trust himself not to do the same thing again.