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[ghoulking]

WHO: Ken Kaneki (AU information)
WHERE: White Tower > Krakoa
WHEN: During September
WHAT: Open log for Kaneki through the event
WARNINGS: Cannibalism, violence, trauma, death, and other NSFW themes.

1. WHITE TOWER; before quantum leap

[ It’s not that Kaneki was born a bad person; he is in fact the epitome of “the way to hell is paved with good intentions” because all of this started with wanting to do good and spiraled down to whatever he is now. Ken is a man in love; he is in love with his wife who is still back in their original world, he is in love with his husband who was ported out years ago – and the love he feels for them, after so many years without them, turned into loss. And loss turned into bitterness, anger, frustration, despair. And Kaneki does not deal well with any of that. He blamed himself at first, but eventually blamed the world.

The world is wrong. The Porter is wrong.

And he is tired of living in the shadow of a machine that nobody really controls – or rather, don’t know how to control. Because, in his mind, he is certain it IS possible to do that. If only he can get to it.

And that’s his plan, to get to it by reaching the highest position as the High Chancellor. He has few bad beans on his way, but he is certain he can pluck them out. And with that single objective in his mind, Kaneki grew to become a member of the Parliament of White Tower, but also a vicious assassin for the faction. Not only that, but his biology – a half-ghoul, who can only consume humans – became well known and he too became well known as the “One Eyed Reaper”, the one who does not leave anything behind (because he eats them, yeah!). And he embraced this title quite well, standing tall, often with an angry expression (also called “resting bitch face syndrome”) and little patience for anyone that will not help his objective.

Few people get to see a much more gentle side of him, often reserved to his current lover Ashlynn, mentor, and allies. Towards everyone else, he is cold, often angry, if not downright vicious. Careful not to step on his toes – he bites. ]

2. WHITE TOWER; post quantum leap

[ waking up in the middle of a room with a woman pretty much on top of him was not something he expected happening, but it is something that did happen. Confusion hit, naturally, but after calming down and speaking to Ashlynn, kaneki learned a bit about this place and the person that he just stole the body from (well, technically it’s himself, right? A version of himself. Kaneki is familiar with alternative timelines by now, if only because that’s what he thinks it happened with that other Kaneki who left last year). Anyway, about what he learned-

None of it was good. And he hates everything he heard.

This world, not only is confusing, but it’s also terrifying, and the person Kaneki just stole the body from – well, he is completely insane. Naturally Ken didn’t share all of his thoughts with Ashlynn, but she probably picked on it from the terrified expressions Ken made. A psychotic killer, an assassin, and someone who willing eats other people, who was recently hired to kill the High Chancellor and wants to take over the place so he can control the Porter. Insane, that person is insane.

Do you know who is not insane? This Kaneki, who actually realizes this is bad. Given how involved original Kaneki was, doesn’t that mean he too is involved, even if he doesn’t want to be? People will recognize him, people will realize it’s not him, and given how murderous this whole faction seems to be, won’t they just go in for an easy kill? Kaneki realizes he is in danger and he realizes he should leave.

Ashlynn has been extremely helpful, but Kaneki doesn’t want to tell her he is planning on leaving (deflecting, that’s the word. Becoming a traitor is also a good way to describe it). But he can’t stay here and thus he decides to at least explore his options. Right now, he can be found at a library, reading through newspapers and articles, learning about the factions and the current state of the world. He is quick to notice Krakoa could a good faction to join but also easy to get to, considering what Ashlynn told him about Josh.

And thinking of him actually makes his face twist. Can he… really just go there and release him? While the woman holding him captive said so, in the end Kaneki is worried if he has to fight someone, too. He doesn’t want to give away that he is not the original Kaneki, and he doesn’t want to be too involved, either. At the same time, it feels so cruel to leave that person, even if Kaneki never met Josh. ] What do I do…? [ with a frustrated sigh, Kaneki passes his hands through his now white hair. Maybe the network… maybe someone else is like him? He can’t be the only one that suddenly just woke up in this place and replaced the original person living here. Right…? ]

For continuity sake, Kaneki will end up figthing Kavinsky after this. That's when he will make a network, asking for help. He will be offered help from Jane Porter (from Krakoa) during this post, but Kaneki decides to go save Josh first. He and Josh will be arriving in Krakoa thanks to Luther's powers.

3. KRAKOA; post-arrival

[ Kaneki arrived to Krakoa a complete and utter mess. He saved Josh and brought him along, and Luther came to pick him and Josh up and of course the man had no idea who Kaneki was (and most likely only knew him as “that guy who eats people”). And then in Krakoa, Kaneki had to try and explain this whole mess and how he really is not that guy who eats people (actually, he does. But not the way the other Kaneki did!!).

To add to all of that, Kaneki killed someone. He promised to himself he’d never kill a person, he’d never kill a human. And he did. It broke him completely, his mind and his heart. And sure the person he killed was an imPort and he was revived, but Ken had never killed before.

The days after his arrival are spent mostly avoiding everyone. Kaneki just wants to be left alone, as far away from people as possible. He stays by the beach while he stares down at his hands, all of him broken thanks to everything that has been happening. He doesn’t even remember how he killed Kavinsky, but everytime he remembers him dead, kaneki gags and actually vomits. He has nothing left in his stomach by now, but that will continue to happen – and he cries and sobs like a child, unable to control himself.

what did he do?!

This shouldn’t be happening. None of this should be happening. Why does everything happen to him? ]

4. KRAKOA; general/happier prompt

[ Naturally, Kaneki can’t just cry forever. He still feels sick and still cries whenever he remembers what he did, but Ken comes to the realization that he… might be here forever. So eventually he moves from his hiding place and actually joins the rest of the island. It’s surprising to see so many children around, but they seem happy and in a way, that calms his heart a little.

From time to time he hears his name and there is a strong feeling of fear and despair creeping right behind him, but it passes soon enough when he notices it’s a kid asking him if he’d like to play. “No, thank you” is always the polite answer he gives, but he does watch the children happily enjoying their time, as if the world outside this island wasn’t completely broken and messed up. Maybe that’s the point of this place.

Neverland.

Well, he is here too, so that makes him one of the lost boys. If he has to live in this world, he is glad he is allowed to be on this island, at least. ]

5. Wildcard

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Comments

[hot_handed]

Y- You're the one who made it weird!!! You sure you didn't know that and just forgot?!

Dumbass. I ain't no side-guy. [He rubs his shoulder unconsciously, turning away.] ...It ain't like you're actually married to anyone. You said it yourself, it's this world's version.

[ghoulking]

I didn't...! [ GOSH ] As if I'd treat you like a side-guy... [ he mutters those last words, probably not realizing their full meaning. ]

And I know that. It's still weird. [ kaneki sighs and eventually reaches for a shirt that he offers Bakugou, so he can sleep in it ]

[hot_handed]

...No. You're too much of a sentimental nerd to do that.

[He sighs, his cheeks still faintly pink, and takes the shirt, only to blush again and grumble under his breath.] Whatever-

[He removes his shirt to get dressed. He's still very muscular, but without the strain of his quirk on his arms, he's not as wide and ridiculously built in the shoulders and arms. But perhaps what stands out the most are all the scars that litter his body- everything from healed stab wounds to bullet wounds.]

[ghoulking]

[ it's kaneki's turn to glance, actually. He doesn't want to stare, but it's only fair he looks, right?

He looks so different... ]

Your other-self also went through a lot, uh. [ he approaches a little. As he suspected, there is no bite mark on his shoulder, and for some reason Kaneki can't fully explain, he feels weird about it. ] Ah- do you have the same powers that you had back home? [ he remembers the dandelions thing ]

[hot_handed]

Yeah? He's an idiot. [Katsuki scoffs, hurrying to put the shirt on. It smells like Kaneki- but his next question has him faltering and he looks down, ashamed.] So fucking what?

[ghoulking]

[ there is a pause that goes on for a bit too long, before kaneki's expression turns to worry. His hand reaches for the other's arm, to gently get him to look back ]

Hey- what's wrong?

[hot_handed]

[Maybe Kaneki can feel the way Katsuki trembles. He tries not to think about his quirk being gone, but he's been scared this whole time, and he has no idea how he's going to accomplish what he promised. After a moment he scoffs and turns around, putting on a brave smirk.]

Nothing, you idiot. Come on, I'm fucking exhausted.

[ghoulking]

[ Kaneki is worried, that's not the normal reaction Bakugou would have. He'd just scream "I will kill you" or something of the sort.

When Bakugou turns, he isn't sure if he should press the matter.] ... If you are sure...

[ Eventually Kaneki nods softly, moving to grab something that could work as a bed (he doesn't have a futton, but AUneki's coats probably could work, they are heavy enough. And Krakoa's weather isn't cold, so he doesn't really much else)]

[hot_handed]

[Katsuki narrows his eyes, glaring and tense, only relaxing when Kaneki drops it.]

Wh- The hell are you doing? Get over here.

[ghoulking]

[ he looks back at Bakugou. It should be obvious what he is doing?? But Kaneki opens his mouth before he touches the back of his own head with an awkward gesture]

Uhm- it's a really small bed.

[hot_handed]

[He glares at the floor, trying to murder it with his eyes, his voice a low growl.]

It's fine. I can sleep on the floor if you don't want to share, but I ain't gonna take it from you.

[ghoulking]

[ he doesn't want Bakugou sleeping on the floor either!

Kaneki just sighs and eventually moves towards the bed.]

Alright. But feel free to kick me if I move too much. [ Kaneki doesn't actually move while he sleeps. He takes a fetal position and holds on to himself - in a way, it helps with bad dreams. And Kaneki has been having a lot of them, but hopefully he won't bother Bakugou too much with them.

In any case, Kaneki moves to the bed, trying to give the other enough room to lay down and feel comfortable as well]

[hot_handed]

Oh I will.

[Should that be reassuring? Either way, Katsuki gets in the bed, but he doesn't bother to stay away from Kaneki. In fact, he curls up against him, wrapping his arms over his, uhm...impressive biceps.]

Shut up. Don't overthink it.

[ghoulking]

[ Kaneki's eyes snap wide open, and he glances back at Bakugou. No, he is definitely overthinking it!!

His cheeks are red again, and instead of curling up like he usually does, Kaneki just stares at the ceiling while his heart shows no sign of slowing down.

This is bad.

And it's nice at the same time, so nice. Kaneki looks back at Bakugou for a moment before he closes his eyes. This is absolutely the worst time for him to be thinking such things, but he wishes he was human and normal. He wishes he wasn't a ghoul and that he didn't eat people (or killed them!!) - if he were normal, then maybe he could do something about those butterflies in his belly.

This is really bad and he is absolutely overthinking.

Kaneki will turn slowly, not really moving Bakugou's arms, but allowing him a better position, in fact.]

[hot_handed]

[Perhaps fortunately, Katsuki is too caught up in his own head to notice Kaneki's reaction. It's awkward, he's sure, but he doesn't give a shit right now. He missed Kaneki, and now that he knows he's not alone he doesn't want to let him go. He buries his face into Kaneki's shoulder, his eyelids heavy, and blinks away stray stray tears, his hear pounding against his ribcage.

Kaneki is warm and smells kinda good. Huh.]

Thanks.

[ghoulking]

... I should say that myself. [ Kaneki still has his eyes closed. His hand does move, searching for Bakugou's to hold it]

In the end, I'm saved by you. I'm glad, though. [ to hear Bakugou saying he'd protect Kaneki... It did make him feel so happy.]

I wish I could do the same... [ honestly, he feels so weak and pathetic]

[hot_handed]

[He smiles against Kaneki's shirt when he says that, squeezing his hand. It's fine. It's not like Kaneki will see him.]

You moron. You did. It's fine. You don't gotta fight.

[ghoulking]

I do... [ it's just a whisper now. Kaneki is so tired, he hasn't been able to sleep ever since he arrived to this place.

He turns on the bed again, this time so he can be facing Bakugou, though his eyes are still closed . His hand still insists on holding the other's, though, afraid that he will disappear if he falls asleep]

I want to fight, I want to be stronger. Like you are. At least, I want us to be like that. [ equals,in a way. Since Kaneki can't have more, at least he can try to have that much]

[hot_handed]

No.. [Katsuki opens his eyes halfway when Kaneki turns to face him, quietly staring at his face. He curls back up against him, whispering in his collarbone, never moving his hand away. He understands that fear.]

You can get stronger when we get back. I'll save us. I'll do enough fighting for us both.

[ghoulking]

[ as Katsuki approaches, kaneki presses his nose against his hair. He wants to come closer too but his body is too heavy to move, so instead his other hand moves to touch Bakugou's shoulder, the one that should have a bite mark. ]

I don't want you to get hurt. I don't think I would... [ be able to stand such a thing. Kaneki can't seem to be able to finish that thought and instead he whispers softly]

...i missed your smell... [ he knows it well by now. And while he is surrounded by so many weird (awful) and strange smell, at least Bakugou smells of the same, no matter what universe they end up in.

And Kaneki finally drifts off to sleep. Tomorrow he will pretend he never said such a weird thing and if brought up, he will just blame it in being tired.]

[hot_handed]

[It's fine, Katsuki can move for them both, practically pressing his body against Kaneki's, electricity running down his shoulder when he touches it. He missed him. Everything else feels like it's falling apart, but not this.]

It'll take more than a few power-hungry bastards to hurt me. Stop worrying, idiot...

[He goes silent, not sure if he heard him right. Well...whatever.] Missed yours.

[Either Kaneki will understand, or he won't, but they're both tired and he doubts he'll remember it in the morning. Katsuki reaches up to pat Kaneki's head until he's sure he's asleep, and finally allows himself to drift off for a moment too.]

[ghoulking]

[ when Kaneki wakes up the next morning, he is still pretty much cuddling with Katsuki, legs and arms tangled together; the sweet smell of Bakugou floods his nose as kaneki regains his consciousness, blinking several times while he tries to recognize where he is and with whom. There is relief when he sees the other again, glad that it wasn't just a dream or some hallucination and they really did meet.

for a moment, he only looks back at the other and almost doesn't want to move. His hand untangles from Bakugou's arm and lands on his face, curiously touching the cheek. He is still there, still real. Good.

Kaneki will be leaving the room to go grab something for Bakugou to eat. It won't take him long and this time he can't really cook anything, but he does bring coffee and a sandwich (hopefully it's enough for now) ]

[hot_handed]

[Katsuki's out, for once, his breathing deep and soft as he doesn't even shift when Kaneki touches his face.

He only drifts back to wakefulness when Kaneki leaves, reaching to hug someone that isn't there. His eyes immediately snap open.]

Kaneki?

[He sits up, looks at his surroundings, the shirt he's still wearing, but there's no one else there. Was it a hallucination? Did Kaneki disappear? No. Nononono-

Katsuki almost falls off the bed as he moves to run out, his breathing shallow and panicked.]

Don't take him, don't take him-

[ghoulking]

[ kaneki opens the door right the second before Bakugou suddenly runs out of the small house, a bit surprised to see him up. He is still carrying the coffee and the sandwich, blinking for a second while he looks back at the other ]

Oh- morning. I went to pick up food for you.

[hot_handed]

[He freezes, and stares at Kaneki in shock. For a second he looks like he might break down. But he recovers and walks up to him, smacking his shoulder.]

Take me with you next time.